Let me just put on my Dr. Phil hat real quick.

So, last night I started talking to Devin on facebook and we were flirting pretty heavily. Well, eventually it got to the point where I told him it was his fault I was getting sick and he said, "Well, looks like I have to make up for that, would cuddling help any?" and I said, "It's a good start, I'd be on the road to recovery after a good cuddle session." So he was like, well then I'm coming over.

So of course, I freak out.
I hadn't left the dorm all day. I had barely any sleep from the party so I ran to Molly's room, made her are Patrica come to my room and clean the room while I at least straightened my hair. Then Josh, my R.A came in, and told us to shut up because it was like 1am. haha. So, Josh stayed to freak Devin out.
When Devin finally got to the room, Josh barely opened the door and acted like it was his room and that Devin had woken him up...so I ran to the door and was like Josh, go away.
So, Molly and Patrica met him then left. And Kelsi started her awkward 'talk to everyone' thing.
Well, finally I laid on the bed and pointed at him then at the place next to me, and he was like, "ooh demanding." haha. So I put my arms around his arm and put my head on his shoulder.
He seemed sorta uneasy so I asked him what was wrong, and he was like, just thinking and trying to figure something out and I was like is there anything I can help with and he was like, "No, I'm just nervous, it's been a while since I've cuddled." Totally cute. Well, after a while, he just got up and was like, "I'm gonna go, I'm tired." Then walked out.

I was confused and kinda hurt.
So, I got on facebook and waited for him to get on, so when he did, I talked to him using facebook chat and it tells you when someone's typing.
Well, I typed, "So...did I do something wrong?"
and it said he was tying then it stopped. So I thought he was just thinking of an answer or something, but I waited like 5-10 minutes and said, "Well, in that case I guess I will just leave you alone."
And signed off.
Went to sleep at like 4:30 doing homework that didn't even matter.
Then almost woke up late for class.
Hurried out with my laptop in hand.
Ended up getting to class 20 minutes early because I got ready so fast and peddled my ass off to get there.
So I got on facebook and there was this message waiting for me:
"Sorry i was such a poor cuddle buddy - i guess the best way i can explain it is recent events have sort-of affected me in a way that i'm not really used to. Basically i'm alot more hesitant than i used to be when it comes to my relationships with girls and i'm not too sure as to why.. i think this might be due to some sort of self esteem issue possibly caused by my last breakup (lets just say i mightve handled that with a similar awkwardness) and probably not being helped by a lot of distractions with my homework (which is prolly why its been over a year) so basically i found myself in this middle ground of uncertainty where although i should be able to just friggn cuddle for some reason i just couldn't.. plus im a slow idiot who could've prolly worked this out a lot smoother but hey at least im not an existential christian

i dont know to be honest i do kinda wish i had truely been able to show off my cuddliness but i guess thatll have to wait another day"

So I responded, "Devin, I am a very blunt human being. If I'm not satisfied, I tell people that I am indeed, not satisfied. If I didn't want you laying in my bed next to me, you wouldn't have been there. It's that simple. Do me a favor, when you're with me- forget about all your insecurities and past relationships. Just focus on being wherever you are, with me. It makes everything smoother. Don't think, just act. If I don't like the way you acted...you'll be the first to know, I promise.
On that note, I must tell you that I am EXTREMELY paranoid. So, when a guy is in my room, on my bed, and tells me that he's thinking and going through his head and blah, blah, blah...I immediately think the worst. Then, when he just leaves with no explanation it makes the thoughts worse. Please don't do that again. Even if all you say is, "It has nothing to do with you, I promise." I'd leave it at that, and not think so badly. Last night though, I honestly thought that you left because you realized that I wasn't worth your time. Because that's how I think.

Anywho, it's time for my class to start.
Hope you have a good day.
And maybe I can see you again soon?"

So, hopefully I get to see him today and I am able to talk to him to tell him to stop thinking around me and just be with me.

But, I must say it's pretty exciting to see that he already kinda classifys this as a relationship.
:D

That is all.
For now.

Peace, love, and Cuddles!