Academic Dismisal.

Now what?

Jack and Jill went up the hill...

...to fetch a pail of water.
Jack fell down and broke his crown.
Then I killed Jill because Jack is mine.
And THAT'S what's up.

:D

lol.

Kso.
What's going on in the wonderful world of Lynsey?
Let's start with Jack.
He's pretty much the sweetest guy I've ever met in my life. He's perfection all bottled up in a shell of amazing. He says/does things that make me smile my little head off. It's crazy because we just made it official on the 19th which was just a day off of the last day of the quarter. So now, I'm forced to spend the next 42 days away from him. Which sucks. I miss him so much already. Him, John, and Molly. It's really quite amazing how close I've grown to people in just a few short weeks. And what's really crazy, is that I may not be able to come back. I may have jeopardized my academic standing at SCAD. But, if that's true- I'll transfer to Savannah State, take like Math and all my gen. ed classes get my G.P.A skyrocketing, then apply back at SCAD. Savannah State is just a few blocks from the freshman dorms so I wouldn't be too far away. Or something. I dunno. I'll probably just move in with my aunt in Savannah, get a job, make money, do shows outside of SCAD, work my ass off, get an apartment or something down here and then apply at Savannah State next year. All I know, is that I love it here and don't want to leave. The people, the places, everything pleases me.

But, for once in my life, I'm letting things just go their course and adjusting to that.

That is all.
Peace, love, and hope.

Can I please...

Just tell you about how right this feels.
Just tell you how I hope I can stay.

You know that point in your life where if you could you'd step out of who you are and see yourself interacting with the others around you? I hit that point tonight.
To be able to see myself standing there talking to him would've been amazing, but would I have changed anything? Why is that always my question? Why am I always about changing things? I should be happy with the status quo with the way things are but for some reason there is always this part of me screaming for more.

Is it possible for things in your life to be as comfortable as the keys under your fingers as you type. I mean, look at me, I can type any word you want without looking and yet I have to stare someone dead in the eye just to search for an inch of truth. Does that comfortably exist?


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I am amazed at how well he handles everything.
I am amazed at how close I feel.
I am amazed by the words he speaks.
I am amazed by his presence.
Simply; I am amazed.

If only I could see a shooting star, I'd wish for so much right now.

But for now, I'll just sit here and wait until tomorrow night, hoping everything works out.

Peace, love, and Screaming Infidelities.

You know what?

Fuck you Amanda Hanlon.
You and your fucking "grading" system ain't gonna get me down.




Enough of that.
Finals are here, pouring upon me.
My birthday is on Friday.
:D
Cobra Starship. AHHHH.
Conor Obrust...AHHHHH!
This is going to be a good weekend!

Tomorrow is devoted to homework and an audition for a movie. Wonder Women. Effin A!

For now, I clean like hell.
Peace, love, and Soap Scum.

Right now, na, na, na.

How can it be the someone that you've never met, someone that doesn't even know you, can sing the words your heart screams.


Just a thought.
Peace, love, and GO TO SLEEP!

Seriously, SERIOUSLY?!!!

I am officially at the point of; if she does another thing to piss me off, I'm going off on her. I have held my tongue for far too long. This morning...her underwear, along with her towels are hanging on the shower. We have hooks on the back of the door for the towels- and the underwear, well that's just trashy. UGH. I just seriously cannot wait to go home, be in my own bed, my own room, and more importantly away from her shit.

Now on to the reason why most of you come here anyway, the boys- the drama- the fun stuff.

So, I think it's finally sunk in the Richard is really gone. I thought I'd be all sad and messed up about this, but I'm not. I mean, yeah, I can definitely tell something is missing but it doesn't hurt, it just feels neutral I guess. Part of me just wants to call him to hear his voice just to see if there's any difference in it. If he sounds happy I'll know he's better off without me around. If he doesn't I'll feel crappy. So, I won't. I'll just let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be, whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

ha.

But, on a better note.
Thursday night, I went to this Dance Dance Fever dance thing over at O-House with Ben.

...Ben.

BEN.

Has it sunk in yet?
BEN.
Ben.
Benjamin.

Alright, I think y'all got it. Anywho, I can't say much because he randomly reads these things. But let me just say it felt like everything was right. Like, I can't explain what I feel when I am with Ben, but it's not normal. I smile more when I am with him, it's like everything that was wrong is finally right when he's around. Being in his arms is so comfortable. I know now that I screwed up by letting him get away. I should've dropped everything for him. But I didn't, and I made the wrong choice- now I am forced to suffer from the consequences.


Halloween was pretty cool.
Molly and I spent like 8 hours on BlogTV, then John came in my room completely trashed and his chin was bleeding so I took him to Molly's room so we could fix him, then he passed out on her bed, then woke up and threw up everywhere. It was funny.

I don't even remember what I did all day yesterday, but I do know most of it was devoted to sleep and Ben. :D

Today, Molly's BFF's from back home came to visit so we showed them all around Savannah and the campus and such. It was fun.
Then, I went and got some milk and the expiration date on it is: November 14th, 2008. :D!!

It's soooooo close!!!
Also, I got my tickets for the concert in the mail on Saturday! They are so pretty. I kissed them when I got it open. haha. I can't wait.

Alright, I think that's it.
Wish me luck in the whole not killing Kelsi thing.

Peace, love, and Hatablockas.