Seriously, SERIOUSLY?!!!

I am officially at the point of; if she does another thing to piss me off, I'm going off on her. I have held my tongue for far too long. This morning...her underwear, along with her towels are hanging on the shower. We have hooks on the back of the door for the towels- and the underwear, well that's just trashy. UGH. I just seriously cannot wait to go home, be in my own bed, my own room, and more importantly away from her shit.

Now on to the reason why most of you come here anyway, the boys- the drama- the fun stuff.

So, I think it's finally sunk in the Richard is really gone. I thought I'd be all sad and messed up about this, but I'm not. I mean, yeah, I can definitely tell something is missing but it doesn't hurt, it just feels neutral I guess. Part of me just wants to call him to hear his voice just to see if there's any difference in it. If he sounds happy I'll know he's better off without me around. If he doesn't I'll feel crappy. So, I won't. I'll just let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be, whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

ha.

But, on a better note.
Thursday night, I went to this Dance Dance Fever dance thing over at O-House with Ben.

...Ben.

BEN.

Has it sunk in yet?
BEN.
Ben.
Benjamin.

Alright, I think y'all got it. Anywho, I can't say much because he randomly reads these things. But let me just say it felt like everything was right. Like, I can't explain what I feel when I am with Ben, but it's not normal. I smile more when I am with him, it's like everything that was wrong is finally right when he's around. Being in his arms is so comfortable. I know now that I screwed up by letting him get away. I should've dropped everything for him. But I didn't, and I made the wrong choice- now I am forced to suffer from the consequences.


Halloween was pretty cool.
Molly and I spent like 8 hours on BlogTV, then John came in my room completely trashed and his chin was bleeding so I took him to Molly's room so we could fix him, then he passed out on her bed, then woke up and threw up everywhere. It was funny.

I don't even remember what I did all day yesterday, but I do know most of it was devoted to sleep and Ben. :D

Today, Molly's BFF's from back home came to visit so we showed them all around Savannah and the campus and such. It was fun.
Then, I went and got some milk and the expiration date on it is: November 14th, 2008. :D!!

It's soooooo close!!!
Also, I got my tickets for the concert in the mail on Saturday! They are so pretty. I kissed them when I got it open. haha. I can't wait.

Alright, I think that's it.
Wish me luck in the whole not killing Kelsi thing.

Peace, love, and Hatablockas.